As I journey, I am finding it difficult. I had a barometer in the past. The feelings of others, the acceptance of friends and familty, the affirmation of my faith community. All more or less formed the "side" of my journey. As a person might walk down a long hall, holding your hands out to feel the walls along your way.
But now, I am really out there. I do not have anyone or anything to bounce this off of. Instead of the freedom I should feel, I am starting to question myself. Who I am now - now that I have disrobed and left the clothing of my old theology along the way. Who now tells me I am on the right path. I don't even know the right path anymore. I am getting more comfortable in this nude body of mine, but it is still so not firm, stable, and concrete.
But I think that is the most amazing thing of all!
